whi saw my last post i was like…

LIFE. its what you make of it, dont make it for anyone else but you!

VOLUME I - the drunk diaries

*THERE ARE NUMEROUSE SPELLING MISTAKES IN THIS POST AS I AM DRUNK AND BAD AT SPELLING*

no one reads my tumblr. so i thought it would be good to use it as a personal drunken vessel for me to pour (type) my thoughts while im drunk (with bad spelling and all) insted of making a dick of myself by texting or phoning any ex’s.

im having a messive confidence issue for reasons which i dont want to share to be honest. *swig of alcohol*

as a result i have been reflecting on my life and have come to the realisation that all of the major points in my life i have done for other people. IT’S MAKING ME SICK! it is litteraly making me sick. my doctor has diagnosed me with depression for the last four years!

*another swig of drink* all i wanted to be since a child was an artist. i have the skill but certain people in my life (who i really want to name but out of some strange respect cannot) have never thought i could make a living out of it. as a result i desided to take the safe option, do something that was “safe” and would make me and easier choice to employ. lets say its money, office, shit, crap, bla bla, stuff that no one findes interesting (INCLUDING ME!)

MY BIOLEGY seems to not want me to finish completing this safe option. but all i know is how to make other people happy, safe, and comfortable!

making things worse is that doing this “safe” option has made be turn my back on love. *massive gulp of alcohol* i am basically emosionally retarded with the oposit sex bacause of this (probably contributing to my depression).

my point is this: “if you try and swim against the natural flow of your life for other people who dont seem to trully care, well your going to find yourself drunk, up at the early morning, pouring your soul out to nobody”

Posted on April 2, 2012